Merciless
"Shark Ethic"
The bearer of burden returns with inability to cope with separation anxiety. It remains to torture me until I breathe and don't scream. It stays to chip away at me until I sleep and don't dream. Roots from my feet sprung like barbed wire and serpents's tongue, rendering me still - a quadripilegic in an iron lung. On my back with scavengers above. The scent of carrion - rotting love. Master your fear.
"Two Men Enter, One Man Leaves"
This is a call to arms for every human who still has a shred of life left in them. If they want what we have, let's see them try - come and take it - try to take it. You won't take us. We don't die. For teh lives of those who think and feel, for all who still try, for those who touch nothing they cannot steal - hope is the last to die. With promises and poison they try to fill us. It will take more than everythin gthey have to kill us. Make the first shot the best you've got. Miss and live to tell? I think not. For the lives of those who think and feel, for all of us who still try - on the soil of this battlefield, hope is the last to die.
"Driving Angry"
May it rain on you forever. We are all alone together. Crippled by selective memory. Choose which lie to believe. One man heartstring tug-of-war. The more I love the more you leave. I hate you with all my heart. Counting on the law of threes. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. There's something not right that can't be made right. Everything in focus now. Gag and vomit at the sight. It seems you've forgotten about the gifts I had to give. If this is the case, perhaps I'll forget to forgive. I hate you with all my heart. Counting on the law of threes. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.
"Mad as the March Hare"
Lock me in a room, throw away the room. There's nothing left. Growing fears. Sleep for years. Wake in tears. I'm on the edge. I'm on the fucking edge. I swear to you. Make one move. Give me one excuse, I dare you. These words are ammunition. This voice is a gun. Not one of you is safe. Fuck you all. Turn and run. I've learned my lesson. Life is barren and bereft. Deaccession until there's nothing left. Puttin gyou away or putting you to rest. Denial or death, which one is best? So much for trying. So what, you're dying. Better you than me. Boiling contempt. SInge and sear. No escape from here. I'm on the edge. I'm on teh fucking edge. I swear to you. Make one move. Give me one excuse. I dare you. These words are ammunition. This voice is a gun. Not one of you is safe. Fuck you all. Turn and run.
"World War You"
I was on the ground for years. The ugly truth carved out of fear. Always looking for more to steal. Full-color nightmares becoming real. This pack of wolves is haunting me. Unrelenting, unwelcome memory. Light feet an dsharp teeth are tracking me. Follow the scent of tragedy. In packs they gather. With fake smiles they greet. They, the hunters. I, their meat.
"Oxygen Debt"
Commitment to lasting and total destruction. Leave nothing left. Breathing annihilation. Living the darkest obsession. Flesh scored like a field. Byproduct of dissolved inhibition. By now you'd think I'd have learned my lesson. I'm this close to giving up. In one breath turn wish to wonder. Don't follo me. I'm going under. No progression. Gaping lips anticipation. Distorted one-sided reflection. Crippling depression. Pernicious suppression. Abandoning conviction. Internal eutrophication. Pure elation in regression. I'm so close to giving up. I cease to wonder. Don't follow me. I'm going under.
"Type A Personality"
I am my father's son. A mile-wide mean streak through me runs. What I deserve, what's lived gets learned. Connections cut, loyalties turned. Born to destroy. My knives are praying in delirious thirst. In cancer city I am the cursed, I'm at my best when things are worst. The sharpest tongues cut their own throats first. Born to destroy.
"Damage Control Freak"
Do you believe in hell below? Do you fear a God above? Soul searching on dead end streets. You can shove your fucking love. No actions without consequence. Nothing said makes any sense. Fuck what you've done. Take what you want and fucking run. Life her is war. What do you fight for? Are you alive? What gives you good reason to survive? Are we alive or are we all just waiting to die? On these crowded streets I'm completely alone. Awake in flames in this disfigured city I call home. Watch time elapse. Watch the world collapse. Life her is war. What do you fight for? Are you alive? What gives you good reason to survive? Are we alive or all just waiting to die? Life here is war.
"Diet for a New America"
No death songs are sung. No hesitation to devour the young. Take what isn't needed - leave the rest. Bleed until there's nothing left. Bred and caught. Sold and bought. No thought to what human hands had wrought. Every day, a hundred thousand slaves. Every hour, a thousand graves. Hear the chorus of the calloused drown the sounds of endless malice. Now the sane must decide when to answer the call to defend. A practice of cannibalistic insanity. Sadistic neanderthalic barbarity. Bred and caught. Sold and bought. No though tto what human hands had wrought. Every day, a hundred thousand slaves. Every hour, a thousand graves. No escape, no relief from suffering beyond belief.
"Narcoleptic Sleepwalker"
The bloodiest will loathe the cleanest. Like scavengers with desparate, wild eyes, the abused becomes the meanest. Of all the starving, I am the leanest. Remember me - remember me to no one. Cut out - cut out my restless tongue. The disastrous compulsions which lead me to this embrace like a plague, like a viper's kiss. Cut out my tongue to stop the screaming. Its human nature to keep on dreaming. Magnifying just to see less. Sewn together until seamless. Every one of us will be this: drugged and fucked until dreamless. Remember me - remember me to no one. Cut out - cut out my restless tongue. The disastrous compulsions which lead me to this embrace like a plague, like a viper's kiss. Rest your ugly head and sleep now. Sleep now. Life will change. Keep dreaming. Life will change. Keep dreaming.
"Temporary Solution to a Permanent Problem"
Thousands of years of illusory days of deceit. Hollow eyes of simple minds flattening their feet. Atrophied minds, easy survival. No wants, no needs. Their hands on their Bible. Work for the worn, safe place for teh sane. A place for lies unveiled, mistakes made plain. I wait while the world wakes. Find a home for my hands. Desperation holding hands with tragedy. Lost time colluding with lunacy. Take the holy out of war and what's left to fight for?
Our Lady of Annihilation
"The Great Red Shift"
This is my life down here with me One mistake for which I still pay dearly Self-reconstruction after a granted wish for annihilation The dissection of definition the bitter bite of memory Cringing in anticipation of the sting of separation the reflections on which we used to rely crushed were we to discover that they could only lie Don't lie to me and say you'd die for me What would you die for?
"Collusionist"
One-sided stories of playthings and Piano strings and everything which
in The heart strings
Like trying to sing while hysterically weeping Frantically trying to seal
the cracks through
Which all things are leaking The fairy tale slowly fades to black My conscience
screams to me a warning ”Don't look back!” There's a sting
in your heart And if it feels like me I hope you feel it forever That
you may always remember Dare I still feel with all of my heart? Am I the
last of my kind? The fool for whom this lesson foes unlearned Those who
attempt to touch fire get burned
May this sting in your heat Live as long as you do A painful reminder
Of all that we've been through An pluckable thorn resting in the side
A promise, an oath to through all things abide
"Quiet Pattern"
I need another I need at least one more Nothing stops it when it comes
These many thoughts reduced to one Something dangerous in mind Nothing
stops it when it comes
then I can't shake you off of me clutching so tight that I bleed
You have something I need I need I need I need I need
I need I need I need I needI need to believe this one thing Push inside,
mine forever
"Growing Square Eyes"
Put my body in the hole, in the ground underneath, there's no sound
Burn all that I've written and every likeness of me When it's done and
I'm pulled
Down from the hanging tree If this if your love, save your love
Hissing whispers on my eyes Hide the truth, the look belies
By the neck guide me in Whispers and a sawtooth grin
In whispers and secrecy My enemies conspired Fifty-thousand volts through
A thread of copper wire If this is your love, save your love
"Your Picture Hung Itself"
Put on flesh and run it through The things you love, they will destroy
you
When the seasons change, my scars burn Another day of “I'll never
learn”
Those words took you but seconds to say Forever more and since that day
They will replayI cease to resist your sweet lips I cease to exist Your
arsenic kiss
The more time passes by The more I realize you and I Were just a lie
So many years believing Belief turned to hope Hope changed to doubt
That became bitterness Which to this day Turns me inside out
Those words took you but seconds to say Forever more and since that day
They will replay I cease to resist your sweet lips I cease to exist
Your arsenic kiss The more time passes by The more I realize
you and I Were just a lie
"Funeral Photography"
Complete and total paralysis Attaching to things we'll never miss
Where we live is this A rotting casket scaled with a kiss
Devour each day, the only way In the blink of an eye
It can be stolen away Counting every second winding down
Like days in the heart of hell Where all the dead wishes go
And the unloved and placeless dwell Grins and poses
Every photo of the living funeral photography It won't be me
We mourn the living One chance to do what you must
This is our one time around Ashes to ashes, dust to dust
"Life During Wartime"
Sleepless nights on the hardwood floors The sweet lullaby of slamming
doors
We spend our time watching Raindrops race up windshields We spend our
time waiting in line
Only to die If only I could sit down With you one more time Tell me the
story that never ends
Play me the record that never ends If only I could sit down With you one
more time
I wouldn't wish this misery On my worst enemy Gangrene hearts unite tonight
"Why Hyenas Laugh"
There's not a prayer in the world In any sect or any tongue
Holy enough to be answered To undo what's been done
The urge to recoil and strike Swells like the tide
This classic position A beginning which looks like the end
It lingers to sting Abscess and canker Swollen decay Lusting forever
The most wretched of flypaper thoughts race across the mind as the moan
like a whore
Their only love is to linger and sting And swell by feeding on the hurt
they bring
You won't live through this
"So Typical my Heart"
and here i am again in envy of your will to leave me behind
we watched the city fall - it couldn't save our love
the death of my trust, eclipsed by tragedy
no need to cut me open, i died of a broken heart,
ashen gray and cold, my mirror turned to stone
as your footsteps fade - await the final wave,
too caught up in my game i watched you walk away
tragedy won't distract your heart
"It Runs In The Blood"
Let go Test the limits of desire
Let go Penetrate to play with fire
Faceless names in nameless places Of hope we only find traces
Fuck your addiction You're not the only one it's killing
Black ink failed Dry well Well dry Will try
Will try not to fail I know how this will end
Every scar has a story - No guts, no glory
"Closure"
Through this I've been forced to find myself again
A half-man, blinded and alone Torn in two from the center line
Jagged wounds leave jagged scars over time This is how I'm being left
to die
I'm nothing again I'm taking you with me next time
What have you done? What have we done?
I'm never coming back
"Less than Zero"
This moment is all that I own Tonight I shut my eyes with you on my mind Attempts in vain to forget that you left me to die But I've grown tired of collecting myself from the ground At your mercy, lost and never found Burn my fingertips so no one knows my name The wait could crush my heart one last wish in vain Its colder than it looks outside Ive watched this world pass by my tired eyes Accept this as my farewell note To this world, to this city and to you This time I want it to kill Cannot bear it again This is all I own This unmailed letter, this dead embrace This fleeting moment all that I own So curse this instinct, this hollow hope This boundless desire that's left me here
"Apparition"
You always knew just how to bury your sins beneath my skin i am the fevered words you wished you'd never said i am the saddest song that haunts you in your sleep i am the thought that wakes you from your sweetest dreams Tonight I'll walk these halls Studying the cracks in the walls To die internally To die eternally The death of all that i dreamed shaken from your sweetest dream From deaths grasp i shall rise and will rise one last time when the tears top the laughter its time to go home and here i am the greatest lie you ever told i am the incision that leaves behind the deepest scar i am your heart when your head says walk away No one dies no dies alone i'll send this chill straight through your bones i am not anyone you know ghost from your past here to seize your soul
"Sincerely,"
(I bled like a leech because I was so attached) This sin in my heart will tear us apart Theres sin in my heart Love will tear us apart Happiness is solitude When theres no one left to depend on I walked a thousand miles through your lies And so will you, so will you? Kill me Tell me Everything falls apart Kill me Tell me Try and break this cold heart Kill me Tell me You thought it would never end Kill me Tell me When we meet again
"In Effigy"
You've watched me die For the final time This bloodsoaked eulogy that at last is mine But ive thought this through as I waited for you To carry me home in your lifeless arms Wait for sleep to grant me This serenity I seek Solace can only be found In everlasting sleep How can I fear death? I'll never feel it I want to die before you I want to die for you But I'll never feel it Tonight the circle closes indefinitely Burn my cold heart in effigy, empty my pockes for the thieves Life has run me through, as I waited for you To carry me home in your lifeless arms Burn my heart in effigy
"The Knot"
And I, I search for something more Before it mattered who you knew And I, I search for something pure Before the knot became the noose Theres no disguise behind these eyes I'm still alive watching you die And as I slowly walk away I hear you say - I never change. And I , I always hoped for more Before this knot came loose And now I seek out something pure Before the knot became the noose In the rearview mirror before the knot became noose Horizon of burning bridges before the knot became noose The knot became the noose
"The Lantern"
(Fuck religion. Fuck gods. Our fathers and families are our true creators. Dedicated to everyone who has dealt with cancer or the death of a family member. It’s not easy watching your architects fall. Truly, for those I love I will sacrifice) You were supposed to be invincible Invincible What happens to you Happens to me Solidarity Forever family I'd give my own life Just to save yours My true creator When death darkens the door Love is stronger than death You are stronger than death What have you seen through those eyes? Tell me what real fear is like No solace when nothing is sure This time I won't question the cure You were supposed to be invincible Invincible What happened to you Happened to me Solidarity Immortality I'd give my own life Just to save yours My true creator When death darkens these doors Love is stronger than death You are stronger than death What have you seen through those eyes? Tell me what real fear is like No solace when nothing is sure This time I won't question the cure Carry the lantern high
"Morphine"
(one month locked up in a hospital) Rest easy foes for tonight my eyes will close I always held my tongue assuming tomorrow would always come But another day has passed, I still cant see the end What wrong turn, led me to his end? Woke up, quenching razors again These faces are not my friend Dodging trains in my sleep Days as long as years, beyond belief The authors of the prophecies are dead and gone The authors of your epitaph have just been born Your deathbed is not a wishing well
"And The Band Played On"
(Dedicated to everyone who has "moved on" from and "grown out" of hardcore. Unfortunately this song is not about one person in particular. Theres nothing wrong with growing up but does renouncing your past and belittling what I still hold dear make it easier for you? Good luck with your new life) Anywhere but here Anytime but now Anyone but you I don't want to make assumptions but if I have to then I will You never really cared You were never really there What it once meant Still means a lot to me With or without you I still dare to breathe And after the fall Somehow above it all But I still dare to breathe The more things change The more I stay the same As the world unravels I remain ..And the band played on... I remain
"Come What May"
(No matter what lies ahead, take everything with a grain of salt. Don’t waste time worrying about tomorrow because today is passing you by right now. Whatever lies ahead, I welcome it with open arms) My epitaph shall say "and come what may" With a grain of salt I walked away Commit the past into blue flame They're not crying - I'm not crying We found you hiding - We found you lying Unfazed Unchanged Tomorrows too late Into blue flame Tomorrows too late With a grain of salt I walked away With my eyes shut into the fray The worlds on fire theres no turning back An empty shell, from heaven I fell With a grain of salt I walked away Commit the past into blue flame They're not crying - I'm not crying We found you hiding - We found you lying And Come What May (No matter what may come Whats done is done)
"Heroes and Conspiracies"
Forever waiting for you to let me down. Reaching for heaven, to fall to the ground. Heroes and Conspiracies. Just like a rose ripped from its root. You're so beautiful and waiting to die. Heroes and Conspiracies. Would you grant me one final kiss? Impaled on the sharpest thorn, these are my wrists. Here we are, Face to face. Without a clue of what to say. Alone at last - no questions asked. Another secret to my grave Now that it's gone was it ever there at all?
"Song of Siren"
(We are like moths to a flame. Seduced by what will surely kill us.) This a monument to failure (victims) of our own design I submit to your cold heart With arson as closure Sifting through the rubble The burning pile of ash Drawn into the flame Can't seem to turn away "Love and you will be loved", "Trust, you will be trusted" I can set a watch to your change of heart Sifting through the rubble The burning pile of ash Drawn into the flame Can't seem to turn away Ground these ashes into your palm these are your memories Carve these words into my arm these are my memories Ground these ashes into your palm - can't resist the siren song Carve these word into my arm - can't resist the siren song Sifting through the rubble The burning pile of ash Drawn into the flame Can't seem to turn away To breathe... To burn I swallowed the truth like razors Can't resist the Siren Song
"No Place Like Home" (Indecision song)
Bound by inability and left to suffer the absence. Words have failed me once again. Attempts at completion have again left me empty. Fate's design has forced me to live without. And when I close my eyes I envision one so undeserving of your presence, one who does not appreciate you as I, one who needs not struggle with your absence